Separating the feelings of love, anger & pain has always been difficult for me.
Growing up in an abusive home, the three were so often enter-twined with each other that they eventually became the same thing. This has made relationships with other people very complicated. I attracted and was drawn to the people that I subconsciously knew fit the profile that felt normal. I was miserable. I had miserable marriages and relationships filled with conflict and pain.
It was a pattern that took a long time to recognize, but when I did, I made a conscious choice to manifest something different for myself. To not let the past define my future. To accept nothing less than peaceful & kind people in my life. I didn’t even know it was possible. It is.
I’ve had to let go of a lot of people that I thought I loved. I’ve also had to learn to open my heart up to the new ones that came.
It doesn’t mean I don’t feel anger and pain. I now recognize that they are all separate emotions from love and you can have one without the other.
Relationships can be complicated but they don’t have to be.