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I am sadly observing the happy reaction of my friends and family as our world spins out of control because of the man they voted into the Oval Office.  I am ashamed.

The last 11 days and the insane chaos that is happening in my country has literally made me feel like I am bursting at the seam.  I don’t know if I want to hide under a pillow or get a plane ticket and go March somewhere.  Anywhere.

I’m not just talking about the chaos that our new President and his band of nitwits has strummed up.  That is almost to mind boggling to process.

I’m talking about every person I know who is supporting it.  That is what’s making me crazy.  It’s breaking my heart.

I’ve come to realize that I really didn’t know 99% of the people I’m friends with.  I really didn’t know my family and maybe I really didn’t even know myself.

I am THAT person who is struggling to continue to be friends with the same people who are excited that Trump is doing what he said he’d do in the campaign.  He is doing ALL of it.  I had hoped, like more than half the country hoped, that he’d be like most Presidents and do almost nothing he promised in the campaign.  Not this time.  He did it all in 11 days.

And his supporters say… BOOM… MIC DROP… take that bad awful Liberals and Democrats who want to share our country with ‘others’ who don’t belong.  America First!  What in the hell does that even mean.  Do you hear yourselves?

To them I say, “How can you NOT see that this is going to hurt you too?  Not just (new) immigrants and Mexicans… but YOU.  YOU are going to suffer economically and you deserve it.  You are going to lose land you hunt and fish on.  You are not going to be able to afford all the material things you love so much more than human life.  Most of you will know someone who dies because they no longer have health insurance.”   Short sighted much?

He pushed America right off the cliff and I’m stunned by how many people jumped willingly.  Look at us fly.  With no parachutes.  To the bottom of the rocky canyon.

So what does a person do with all their friends who are happy about what he’s doing and will do?  Pretend you don’t know they feel that way?  Pretend I don’t care?  Doesn’t that make me a hypocrite?

How can we go back to that ignorant bliss?

I’m just not sure that I can.  I know I’m supposed to.  I know I should.

It might take some time.  I may have to sit back and be quiet and just observe for awhile until I can find that place in my heart where I love them anyway.

2016 done and DONE….

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Most of my family and friends are elated and are celebrating ‘that person’ who will become the next President.  I can’t even say his name.

I watch his cabinet picks.  It’s like we are living in Opposites World.

I listen to his ‘campaign manager’ divert every question and never actually answer a question and I am disgusted.  This might be the norm.  I’m not sure.  Normally I avoid politics.  But unfortunately,  for my husband, this year was different.

It seems that there is nothing ‘that person’  does that will make the ‘Obama/Democrat/Liberal’ haters acknowledge wrong doing.

This is where our country is at.  The consensus is that NOTHING he says or does is worse than anything ‘They do’ or have done

So we tolerate his lies, his childish tweets and his  Bullying.

But Republicans won the Senate so it’s all worth it right.???

Just to be clear.  I am not an Obama Lover or a Hillary Lover nor am I a Liberal.   I don’t affiliate with any party.  For many reasons.  First, Politicians lie.  Second, I find bits and pieces of all parties to be beneficial.

I love the United States of America but I am currently ashamed of the behavior of a large majority of the people who live here.  I am ashamed that we have elected  … ‘that person’…. to be our next President.   He can’t even finish a full sentence without the same repetitive adjectives.  I’m not sure he’s ever uttered a complete sentence.

How does this affect me personally?

Besides the obvious world issues where I think he’s going to create major chaos in, chaos that his supporters are also going to feel, I’m struggling with being friends with people who are not only ok and accepting his awful behavior but are compelled to defend him and vilify anyone who dares to stand up and call him out.

This election has sadly made me realize just how un-aligned I am in heart beliefs  with so many people that I am close to.  Thoughts and beliefs have been expressed that I didn’t even know existed.

Truth revealed that can not be unseen.

To all people and to my children and grand children I say this:   Raise the Bar.  Don’t accept disrespectful bullies ever.  No matter what position of authority they are in.   Best Friend,  Casual Friend, boyfriend, parent, spouse, teacher, principal, congressmen, senator OR the President of the United States.  Don’t accept it in your private life and don’t accept it in your public life.  Use any platform you have to denounce this kind of behavior.

Thoughts

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My granddaughter tells me that she wishes she could have a different brain because hers does things she doesn’t like.

Especially when she’s trying to fall asleep.  She tells it to be quiet and it just keeps thinking about things like  Monsters and the Little Dinosaur that fell into the raging river with his Daddy, who drowned.  Then she gets all sad and can’t sleep because her brain won’t listen to her and it never stops thinking.

She is pounding her little fists on her forehead as she tells me this.   She is only 4 but can articulate and is insightful in ways that astound me.

I am 47 and have not figured out to make my brain stop thinking and creating scenarios that are completely untrue.

Turns out I’m not the only one.

 

Pandora’s Box

cropped-baby2.jpgI sat at a restaurant and listened to a family member vomit racist comments until I was banging my head on the table and begging her to stop.  We were discussing the election.

This election feels like nothing I’ve ever experienced.

A Pandora’s box has been opened.  Will there be hope left after its closed?  There has to be.

Have we changed or have  these thoughts and feelings been lurking just under the surface, of so many people we know and love, and are now bursting forth in the form of offensive meme’s and hateful comments on social media?  I think both.

Fear.  That fire has been fanned and encouraged.

America won’t be made greater with more hate and venom.

America will be made greater with empathy and love.

THAT and a little less late night sharing on Twitter.

 

 

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